It’s completely black! I see completly nothing and it’s scary. I always knew I was going to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but now there is no tunnel and especially no light. I have no more guidance, no more vision but only many fears, too many doubts and so little hope for what is yet to come.
When I was a little girl, I knew I was going to be a doctor or a dentist or a therapist. I wanted to take care of others and make them feel good about themselves. I wanted to let every body know that they have the world at their feet and they can do anything that they want as long as you believe in yourself and work hard. Now, that I am in the middle of my degree, I can clearly see that I have no idea what I am going to do with myself. Where am I going? What am I doing? Silence! I hear no answers to my million questions. Indeed, it was only two questions but they are very importants questions. I had a vision, I had a plan and even a plan B for all my dreams and aspirations. What am I supposed to do when my plan A and B fail? What do I do? I don’t know. It’s very hard for me to admit, but I was the type of girl who had her whole life planned.
Now that I am a well-educated young woman, I realize that I don’t have to be a doctor, nor a dentist nor a therapist to help others and build their self-esteem. I can do that by loving and caring for myself. How am I supposed to help others when I can’t help myself? How am I supposed to teach about loving when I’ve got issues of my own? Indeed, we all have issues and are internally fighting our own battles, but these battles don’t have to keep us down and prevent us from living.
So, I pledge to:
1) Love myself no matter what.
2) Tell myself how wonderful I am everyday.
3) Stop frowning so much and smile.
4) Surround myself with positive people. Ignore the negative people.
5) Believe in the future, and not worry about what I can’t see.
What will you pledge?